6 years later

Trigger Warning

Today is the anniversary of my rape.  6 years ago today my step father decided that I was nothing more than a piece of meat for him to get off on. I fought him off for 4 hours. I still smell him on me. I still can’t drink sweet tea because he was drinking it the entire time he raped me. I still feel dirty. I still have nightmares and flashbacks. I can’t watch many tv shows because they trigger me. I can’t wear anything with spaghetti straps because I was in a spaghetti strap top when it happened. It never gets easier being a rape survivor. I’d just like the pain to go away.