sweetpea

*Possible Trigger*

Something has been bothering me for a while. Well, a couple somethings actually… The first thing is this: Is having sex with a drunk girl always considered rape? I ask because a while ago I went to a party with my boyfriend and got extremely trashed. I don’t remember anything about that night, but the next day was told that I had sex with my boyfriend (who wasn’t trashed like i was). At the time I was just relieved that it was my boyfriend I’d had sex with instead of a stranger, but it really bothers me that if no one had said anything to me, I would still have no idea that I had sex. I have no idea if I initiated it, or how it occurred, or where. I don’t think it’s rape, since it was with my boyfriend and I probably would have sex with him anyway, right? Or is it always rape no matter what? I’m just confused in general how to interpret this situation.

Another thing that has been bothering me, is that recently when having sex with my boyfriend, he tried to go down on me and I said no at least four times. I told him it made me uncomfortable and I didn’t want to do that. He wouldn’t take no for an answer, saying "please, just a little bit" and "come on" and pushing my hands out of the way and my legs open. Instead ...