If you google “amherst tshirt pig roast” there’s a picture – here’s the address. http://caroljadams.blogspot.com/2012/10/fraternity-culture-misogyny-and-pig.html?showComment=1349818692568

Believe me, I’m not defending Twilight here (I REALLY am not), but I read it as Edward didn’t want to have sex with Bella because he assumed he’d rip her apart and it was too dangerous when he’d ‘lose control’. Bella had to talk him into it. At length. Over the course of SEVERAL passages [...]