in hell.

I’ve written about the abuse I experienced as an undergraduate at a religious university; some of you may have read my recent guest post on this site about feminism and recently. And some of you may have even read my blog, anthonybsusan.wordpress.com, and may know that I discussed the assault in greater detail there. I’m not linking to it because it’s triggering. So are the comments.

And I can’t believe I didn’t expect it. I’ve read about the badgering women experience when they talk about assault but I’d had yet to experience it. But that’s been my personal hell for the past two days. My ex is now posting on my blog, exhibiting a total failure to understand the concept of “no contact” as explained to him by the police, and he has now publicly threatened to sue me. To cap it all of there are men’s rights activists trolling me, and some whacko advising him to “find his own recourse under common law.”

This is hell. It’s got to be. It’s worse than the nightmares I’ve had about him. And so I am looking for advice, any advice. How do I deal with this? How do I keep myself together and my head up? How do I keep faith in myself when I’m being told that I am a liar and a delusional woman? I just want all of this to be over.

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